SET IT UP STRAIGHT

My number for today made a blast the moment I entered the door. The velvet printed peplum skirt combined with a see-through white long sleeves top (with white sando underneath) and the ribbon detail of the blouse makes it more appropriate for office wear and to complete the look I paired it with a retro inspired peep-toe sandal in dusty pink. No accessories because the blouse itself is the bomb. I opted to play it cool with a dark chocolate brown watch and a pair of pearl earrings.

The gays definitely love how I pulled it together and the never ending mapang asar co-workers I have keep on asking me “Saan ang date mamaya?” Ayan tayo eh, pag nag mukhang tao na may date na agad. Haha! So, I snapped at them “Yes, I have” which is partly true. Because it’s Tuesday and I had a date with the Lord, it's VCF day. :)

Getting back to servicing and positively working on it with baby steps is what I’m currently doing in the last weeks. Some will laugh on the thought of this, but I don’t care. As long as I know what I want and I want to do what it is, then I will. No holds barred.

Setting my path straight in reaching the goal is what I want to put emphasis on. No more hazy single-mindedness that letting it consume me and eat me from the inside for months. If no remedy is given right away, then I don’t know where I will end up after this realization is over.

The Pastor I know and is someone close to me once said “Satan doesn’t mind if you go to church, attend all the services that you can attend to, pray day and night. He doesn’t care, what he cares about in getting from you is that acceptance of Jesus in your life, that you let Him be your Savior.” Going back to my notes from different talks I get to listen to, it really made sense that yes, we are Christians but it never stops from sitting at the church while listening and then singing songs for Him. There is a deep meaning of that “relationship” we need to build with Him aside from the constant communication we do through praying.

No one is born to be a saint neither we must act like it. Everyone commit a mistake several times a week yet we don’t have the right to judge someone based on their wrongdoings. Thinking how bad it is to feel that instead of helping you get up from the mud, they will bring you down even more. Sad but true. I, myself is not perfect and committing an error is not new at all. Though, surrounding myself with people with the right mind-set and attitude whenever the going gets rough, yet I survive. Same goes with the support required from us by those who extend their hand so we can pull them out from that pit life has put them in.   

We abandon some folks and we know for a fact that we did yet we didn’t do anything to remedy the situation. I, guilty as charged seem to be not really deserting but more of keeping silent should the right words to explain were all gone leaving me breathless. Being rebellious to let yourself believe you are right? Bet not. I was listening to a song and the lyrics struck me big time “God maybe angry at your rebellion, but He will never be angry at your return” and so making the choice to go back to serving Him is certainly RIGHT after all the mistakes happened in the past.



*Entry for September 17 | 164 days to go*

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