IT ALL STARTED WITH A DIRTY SHOES

Recently, my body has been out of whack and I want to blame the hormones or the weather condition but I’ll say both. Yes, I can be really annoying sometimes or most of the time but I guess that’s all how being a human is all about. Mood swings, PMS-ing or you just feel that you are not in the mood and you just want to be idle and stay on bed all day long.

I was on a mandatory catch up session with my ever protective BF (bestrfriend I mean, just feel like writing and using the short form for a little effect, wink wink! :P) who was the consummate gentleman ever if I’m acting little bratty and was generous enough of the space I need. He will just keep quiet, and he just allows me to set free the bad clouds away. We were waiting for our ride and suddenly, out of nowhere, this man was rushing on our direction because of the sudden downpour! It was pretty late when I was about to move a little to gave him some room so he can pass by with no hassle, but my calculation was wrong (or I was just a bit slow and he was actually fast?) and he just stepped on my sneaks like I was expecting. First, I was just making an excuse that day given with the weather we have in Manila for the past days, yet I’d really wanted to wear my off-white slip-ons. Second, he was soaking wet when he was still crossing the street and I even managed to put the blame on him considering I was all protected because we are at the shade and I was even wearing a hoodie; I’m so dry compared to him. So my most dreaded nightmare came to life when my slips are so dirty! He even said sorry but I was raging mad for no apparent reason! I just stared blankly at him and nod. While we we’re on our way to Makati, I was just really, really quiet all throughout the travel.

When we reached our destination and he wants some burgers for lunch, he told me to get a place and I spotted a vacant table right away considering there are a lot of people during lunch hours. When I parked there, I sniffed a not-so-good smell and I know BAD MOOD is on its way. I sat on the chair and was a bit disappointed to see the table dirtier than I thought it was which made it official that my BAD MOOD just crept on me. I went in line where he was standing at, and told him to get the food to go instead, and we’ll just eat it at the park instead. Without further questions, he just did my little request and a few minutes later, the brown bag is within his hands and he handed me packets of ketchup and some tissue since both of his hands are already full. I walked quietly and I’m not even speaking a single word, probably I was still not feeling a-okay from the series of unfortunate events. So we sat by the Greenbelt Chapel and suddenly the ketchup fell and I was squinting and letting a loud grunt. Seriously – over a packet of ketchup and some tissue that fell I was so bratty. So I sat on the bench while my bestfriend is happily eating his burger while I was on my full face mask on telling the whole world “Galit ako sa mundo!” I know he was laughing inside while letting me indulge on my grumpy pants moment. The dragon steam is actually happening while I was unaware of how many times I had my eyes squinting while grunting. I know that is comical – stressing yourself out over a packet of ketchup and tissues fell all at the same time and the dirty table plus my not so white slips. If you are in a bad mood, everything seems so exaggerated 10 times more.

After 30 minutes of silence, I realized how bad I can actually be. I broke the stillness and he burst into a good laugh and I just pout and was about to be hissy fit again. All along he was laughing at me but decided to keep mum and he just left me like that so I can let it ALL out (his words) out because at the back of his mind he was thinking “I’m mad. He didn’t do anything. But I just have to blame him…just because!” and I explode laughing my ass out when he mimicked me with rolling of eyeballs and he was embarrassed right after I teased him back.  Because that's exactly what was running on my head the whole time. I wouldn’t be happier at the side of my bestfriend whenever he makes me understand how childish I can get sometime.

Lessons I’ve learned from this episode of my silly act.

Never blame others – it wasn’t the guy’s fault that my slips are dirty now. I was lucky in fact, since I’m not soaking wet which saves me from catching a cold, and I have with me my umbrella and hoodie. How selfish can I get for just thinking of my well-being and being so dense that he was actually at risk of getting sick? I could’ve been more patient and offered him a hanky or Kleenex perhaps? Besides, why on earth I want to wear my slips on that kind of weather, lol!

It’s just a dirty table – my laziness to look for another table or to call the crew’s attention to have it cleaned is much easier and that is the right thing to do as opposed to walking out on the table where I parked.

It’s just a flying packet of ketchup and tissue – haha! I really can’t believe that I let the stress get into me. Very, very annoying kiddo.

I'll always get back to using my trusty chucks, maybe this will not give me bad moods. Haha!