Where should I be heading if all roads
lead to something befuddling that I can no longer differentiate?
Mid-life crisis? Oh please, I’m waaaay past that eon of my existence and I somehow manage to combat that period of my life. I guess everyone was able to fight with and win with their mid-life crisis periods.
I’d never get much enough time to spend with myself alone. Don’t get me wrong, I think everyone must have a date with their own self for them to sort things out, clear their minds, basically be idle and get the chance to think things over and get back in shape. A good friend of mine taught me this and somehow, it never failed me to give the time I need if something is bothering me. Maybe spend a day walking around the mall (which sounds a bit tiring) or having a good read over a cup of coffee sounds much better. That’s why I always opt for the latter.
Many things had happened in the first quarter of my year. I met new friends (which I am thankful for), went to different places that I never thought I will be going to, got hurt, hurt someone, made someone cry, and the list goes on.
At this point in my life, I don’t know what other plans I should’ve made that I wasn’t able to do yet? Or the plans I have written and working my arse out to make it come to life is enough? Most of the time, I feel there is something still lacking and no matter how much effort I make, it’s not enough to decrypt what it's all about. I don’t have any power or perhaps a crystal ball that can give me the answers right away. That would be cool if I can get to have one for at least a month or two; then I’ll just overuse it before it was gone and turn into ashes.
No more waiting for the right time, this is the right time. It cannot be delayed or else, it is more of prolonging the agony (Apologize for the lack of better term). Achieving again what was within my reach seems impossible, but with the right attitude, faith and determination. I am on the right path; I will follow Him and follow the road where He is leading me.
Mid-life crisis? Oh please, I’m waaaay past that eon of my existence and I somehow manage to combat that period of my life. I guess everyone was able to fight with and win with their mid-life crisis periods.
I’d never get much enough time to spend with myself alone. Don’t get me wrong, I think everyone must have a date with their own self for them to sort things out, clear their minds, basically be idle and get the chance to think things over and get back in shape. A good friend of mine taught me this and somehow, it never failed me to give the time I need if something is bothering me. Maybe spend a day walking around the mall (which sounds a bit tiring) or having a good read over a cup of coffee sounds much better. That’s why I always opt for the latter.
Many things had happened in the first quarter of my year. I met new friends (which I am thankful for), went to different places that I never thought I will be going to, got hurt, hurt someone, made someone cry, and the list goes on.
At this point in my life, I don’t know what other plans I should’ve made that I wasn’t able to do yet? Or the plans I have written and working my arse out to make it come to life is enough? Most of the time, I feel there is something still lacking and no matter how much effort I make, it’s not enough to decrypt what it's all about. I don’t have any power or perhaps a crystal ball that can give me the answers right away. That would be cool if I can get to have one for at least a month or two; then I’ll just overuse it before it was gone and turn into ashes.
No more waiting for the right time, this is the right time. It cannot be delayed or else, it is more of prolonging the agony (Apologize for the lack of better term). Achieving again what was within my reach seems impossible, but with the right attitude, faith and determination. I am on the right path; I will follow Him and follow the road where He is leading me.
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