Blame the weird concoction
of siewmai (siomai, yes I know it was indeed spell creatively), kaya toast and
coffee that it gave me the realization I badly needed.
A couple of days
ago, I was having this conversation with a friend whom actually I wasn’t ranting
to but more of telling that I have other plans for my career.
It wasn’t a
habit that I always ask for myself. I grew up being contented with what I have,
as the saying goes “Live by your means” which I have to agree that this should
be practice by each individual. “Pray before you pay” must be your catchphrase
every time you open your wallet or even before you swipe that card.
I can’t even
remember an instance that I asked HiM for something material like expensive
gadget or a luxurious tour to Paris so I can see how beautiful Eiffel Tower is
despite me dying to see it since I’ve realized how much of a beautiful infrastructure
it is. I’m pretty much happy that I got a collection with anything Eiffel on
it.
For years, I have
been praying for a career break. Selfish, eh? But never had it crossed my mind
why it wasn’t given to me notwithstanding the fact that this is the first time
I’m actually asking something for myself. Probably, I was too blinded that it
is not meant for me and yet I keep on pushing my luck. Sounds pathetic but yes,
that’s how badly I want to have it.
It took me
months before I get to appreciate why it wasn’t given to me and I thank my
friend for thinking and analyzing it on my behalf.
Wherever God
puts You, there’s a reason for it. All you have to do is trust HiS will.
