TEMPORARY

what you want may be just temporary.

 

all those time that i am writing my thoughts here, maybe it is time to share another thing which i can call a sequel to "diary of a brokenhearted girl". why do we have to experience a heart break? why do people will suffer such pain after giving all what you have got? i kept asking "why me?" and the follow-up would have to be "did i hurt anybody?" i can confidently answer the latter with "of course i didn't". from the happiest to happiest, what tags along is saddest to saddest. it is unavoidable and me will not be exempted from this. what i have gone through is very character building; i felt i grew 5 years in one year. after the storm had passed, i have learned humility and acceptance. i am old enough to be much stronger and i can say i don't have a problem being single since i have taking steps slowly this time. i would like my man to be someone whom i know deeply. meaning, we have spent so much time together to learn from each other. it would be nice to be in love with the the person who is in love with the fact that you are already a happy couple. phew! that sounds cool! i am a hopeless romantic, admittedly saying i want letting my special someone i am always spending much time with him, maybe it is a small chat together, a phone call or writing each other unexpectedly. even to my friends, i always like surprising them once in a while to let them feel i'm here.

so what i am up to now?

 

praying - i strongly believe that whatever adversity becomes an opportunity if you will keep the faith. this is true since it was a first hand experience. i keep telling my friends about this and sharing beautiful things that i've learned along the way.

 

optimism - we have to eyes to see and and use. be skilled at weighing things together; open our mind in things that our eyes refuse to see. don't be judgmental but be fair enough to be a critic of your own self.

 

diversion - it is essential that you know how to divert things when they become stiff at some point. i learned the art of separating pain from happiness; when i'm in too much pain, i try to find a way to make myself happy. this is a reflex that most of us must practice. try listening to happy songs, watch a funny movie that will give your jaws pain from too much laughing, read a book, take pictures. in short, don't sit in one corner and wait for the pain to vanish, trust me it won't be gone overnight.

 

and lastly would be the re-birth of the new you. past is past, welcome the upcoming days with arms wide open and a hearty smile. be open to meeting people and if you found someone you want to work things out, don't be afraid. let that person how you feel by saying something like, "i think we progresses everyday" (ooops! i think i said this one recently).

always smile and be positive ;)