RANDOM TEXT

"uy mahal mo ba sha? oo o hindi? ang totoo, di ko intensiyon na tanungin ka sa nararamdaman mo. gusto kong maisip mo kung sino ang taong mahal mo.psych lang yan, wala akong binanggit na name pero naisip mo sha diba?"

ito yung message na na receive ko na napaisip ako. honestly, there is no one i thought of. maybe for one reason, baka yung tao na mahal ko eh until now mahal ko talaga. or wala siguro ako maiisip dahil wala naman. i asked myself, "bakit wala ako naisip?" marahil siguro, i don't have one--as simple as that. sometimes, we think far more than we feel. i guess it's not healthy if we will feed our selves with the notion that 'like' is very synonymous to 'love', vice versa.

with the right way of thinking, comes the right way to accept things. as we grow older, our perception changes. when we were younger, we cannot think of any serious matter aside form studying our lessons in preparation for finals or major exams perhaps. when we get a little bit older each year, we wish to go back from where we thought that going to school is the hardest task in our everyday lives not knowing it was surviving the real world with the real battle of life. you go to work, spend 8 hours (lucky you!)in front of the computer doing reports or something important that needs to be submitted in an hour or more. your boss' demands which is quite impossible at times (i didn't say my boss is one of them hehe ;p) co-workers who gossips most of the time, uncooperative people who wants to drink coffee, chat with their special someone while smoking a pack of cigar in one sitting.

now, being said all these. i have grown older from the first time i started learning to write my name. i had so much complain on how to write letter "S" correctly. how to tie my shoe lace and do my neck tie. from the simplest form of grooming like putting my headband after i combed my hair to making a pony tail. all these were learned baby step by baby step.

through the years, i do not want to step out of my comfort zone. i want to play safe, just staying here gives me the comfort i need. so i guess this is the reason why i didn't come up with the answer to the text message right away. like the picture below, i am behind the glass door that serves as my comfort zone.